These things

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One Day You Cross a Bridge And Your Entire World is Different

Ok, so I cry.  I cry a lot more now than I ever have in my entire life.

Not because I am sad, but because I am emotionally sensitive to a level I have never known or hardly remember. My best analogy is that up until the last couple of years I have had an emotional ‘plaque’ build-up around me.  And just like after a visit to the dentist, life events have rendered my ethos more exposed and as each emotion visits my daily path I am overwhelmed with my heightened sensitivity.  It could be a simple tear or an awkward face spasm. I can not control it.

It doesn’t have to be anything big.

I recently visited Wynnton Arts Academy with Leadership Columbus and found that there are some amazing things going on in our public school system.  I am proud of area leaders, school teachers and parents for pushing to integrate innovative learning techniques to provide our schools with a fundamental knowledge and making it fun.  I think I cried 10 times that day.  Just tears.  Not gushing or flowing floods but a swelling of joy inside my chest.  I can keep it well hidden.  From seeing young students that remind me of myself and my son Gus to hearing voices of happy kids doing great things.

Also, a movie trailer with dramatic music can invoke this involuntary response.  I’m a sucker for kids now so I can no longer make it through any PSA about children in other countries.  I fall deeply under the spell of any TV show or movie that portrays a triumph or ‘moment’.  I recently watched ‘Courageous’ and I almost didn’t make it through.

I am aware that my family life has attributed to this new self. I am so proud of my wife and son as we exist each day with a vigorous push to squeeze every second out of each minute we have together.  I’ve done well to heed the warning that family is first and the obstacles I have had from being a new father and starting a tech company have brought me more emotions than I can ever remember.

For that I am thankful.

It is as if I have come across a bridge and I have no want or desire to go back. Each day I experience something again for the first time and I am soaking it all in. It’s kinda like driving around a new city on vacation.  I am noticing every sign, the smell in the air and every little thing I wouldn’t notice if I had been there for many years.

2012 has already begun with more triumphs than expected.  As an entrepreneur, I am in the planning of a second company and creating several exciting platforms.  As a team manager, Stand And Stretch has continued to exceed our projections yet again.  As a father, I have been able to regain my evening time and making the most  of it.  As a husband, I am a catalyst for my wife’s career launch.  As we approach happiness, I am reminded that my family is the core at which I find my energy and new-found emotional state.

I am actually tearing up right now…

About the Author

I am a husband to a beautiful wife named Whitney and Dad to a wonderful baby boy. Yay! :) Damien Augustus Shaffer has come into this world on March 15th 2010. In my professional life, I have accumulated over 4 years utilizing a wide range of technologies to develop software solutions for my current employer. Most of this time was spent learning methodical approaches within different environments to broaden my programming knowledge and project planning abilities. These environments include both open source and Windows based development, mainly Web. I also dabble in Social Media and it applications in today's culture and marketplace. I consider it a hobby but some may say its an obsession. ;) I enjoy it immensely.

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